A Reason For Challenges

I began this blog exactly one year ago today.  And so it is only fitting to explain why, as I turned “29” again this past week, I am going to continue posting.  It is fitting to explain what I have learned this past year as I have posted almost every week.   I recently had […]

Choosing To Create What You Want

Creation is a very interesting reality.  Every human being is constantly in a state of creation–for better or for worse.  I began to really realize this in 2011.  Since then, I have learned a great deal about the power I hold in creating the life I want.   Some people discover this power to create […]

The Darkness is Real

Yesterday was a dark day for me.  I was triggered by something by husband said and I spiraled.  I allowed the darkness to swirl around me for the entire day.  My mind was pummeled by disparaging thoughts about myself.  I know who the source of such thoughts is.  I know they aren’t true.  But when […]

Trauma-Induced Depression

I recently found an article that is extremely insightful.  Sometimes we believe that trauma is comes from events such as the death of a loved one, a car accident, getting seriously hurt, etc…  In fact, trauma can be anything that sends our nervous system into survival mode.   During a traumatic event, the nervous system […]

Marriage Under Fire! For Helping Spouses

I believe that one of the toughest challenges with depression and anxiety and chaos can come to the spouses of those who are suffering.  Sometimes it just becomes too much.  I’ve heard it referred to as “caretaker fatigue.”  And rightly so. Countless marriages continue to be challenged because one spouse is dealing with emotional difficulties […]

Why Just Thinking Positive Thoughts Is Not Enough

If I had a dollar for every time during my fight with depression that I thought, “Don’t tell me to just think positively!  It doesn’t work!,” I would have a lot of extra cash!!   The fact is, I was right and wrong with this belief.  I was correct in believing that just thinking positively […]

Subconscious Programming And Forgiving Myself

Today (July 2015) I discovered something very interesting.  I learned that there has been some subconscious programming going on inside of me.  What is fascinating is that consciously I did not believe this programming–in fact, I have been extremely conscious of why I fought depression for a dozen years.  So to learn that there has […]

It’s Not Mine — MIND KEY

Somewhere at about the halfway point in my journey with depression, I realized that I should probably stop referring to the depression as “mine.”  I’m not sure where this idea came from; it just sort of showed up.  I had this strong desire to detach myself from it.  It was probably around this point that […]

Does My Life Matter?

None of us are going to leave this planet alive.  I know it’s obvious.  But sometimes we need a reminder that the person we are today may be the legacy we leave in a few hours.   My dad’s best friend passed away yesterday–very unexpectedly.  He was hiking a mountain with his grandkids, sat down, […]

The CHAOS Monkey

Last Thursday began at 6:30 a.m.  By 6:50 a.m. my husband and I knew the day was not going to end the way we had been planning…   Saturday was our 24th wedding anniversary!  We had planned a fun 2-day retreat, complete with Razor and four-wheeler fun in the desert.  We had set up things […]